Long Time No Write

Hiatus. I have been in between. At times it seems I am somewhere between walls that are closing in on me.

Have you ever felt like you are always busy but do not get anything accomplished? Or perhaps you feel preoccupied.

• Maybe it is ADHD or ADD.
• Maybe it is that I am unfocussed.
• Maybe I am recharging.
• Maybe I am constantly interrupted by my husband or my animals.
• Maybe I am lost.
• Maybe I am losing cognizance.
• Maybe my to do list is so long that it broke my brain.
• Maybe I am lazy.
• Maybe I don’t want to go where I need to go to accomplish whatever it is that I am avoiding.

Back on Track

My bitching, and moaning, and feeling sorry for myself only lasted for part of the day. I started writing this, made a late lunch for my husband and me, who was also working at home today, and set up a new food prep area in my pantry because I am breaking down my kitchen/living/dining area to prep for new window installation taking place in a couple weeks.

So I did get stuff done.

I also did some serious thinking after the last check in of my co-working group that also met today. The group is small and composed of good friends. One day a week we are there for each other for half of an hour with a couple hours between over the course of half a day when we work on whatever we most need to do. We encourage each other in whatever way we can. It started out being a group for writing and getting business stuff done as a sort of replacement for a monthly blogging and writing meetup that I organized for 7 to 8 years. One member is a retired nurse, another a retired physical therapist and yoga instructor, and the other worked in hotel management until she retired and began her second career as a quilting instructor. We are different enough to provide creative support and bounce ideas off of each other based in the very different strategies and tactics we learned in our personal, professional, and business lives.

I just need to remind myself that I do get things accomplished, just never as many as I plan for, or wish to do. I think lots of women think like this.

By 2019 I was burned out with the meetup group and decided to take a few months off. It was delightful. I re-energized after some down time and traveling. Then as I was preparing for a new phase in my life, the corona virus struck, and so much changed for all of us, with none of those changes seeming to be for the better. I took online courses on marketing, and then on self-publishing, which I am still pursuing. I have drafts of several workbooks done. Still more to do though…

Now to Decide Where the Tracks are Headed

The thing I did not plan for, besides the nasty surprise of Covid, was for how differently I would feel moving into retirement age. I am a wise woman by age and by traditional type casting of women my age. So I am allowing myself some wiggle room, but these past 5 years of total focus on learning in a room by myself distanced from physical interaction has ended.

I finally figured out a way to gain to access to my little bit of inheritance that had been jointly held with primarily distant family. I have started on seriously overdue home repairs. Heating and cooling and windows, and the like. Also attending a concert or major league baseball game once in a while is now possible. Enjoying life and getting things done slowly with as little stress as possible. I think that is accomplishing a lot.

So much of life is perspective.